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Perhaps regrets are starting to kick in. All these pretense is too much to live with. The constant pondering thought of how much longer i can wait is slowly but surely killing me inside.

The heart is hurt and broken. Fix it.

…………………….

and I must confess
my heart’s in broken pieces
and my head’s a mess

Run

I’ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You’ve been the only thing that’s right
In all I’ve done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we’ll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

need to be alone

Taking an emotional break from the cyberspace and in life.

Be back soon.
For all the other things, 90299896.

life is short, be happy everyday.

I remember asking just 3 days ago, “why do you look so happy today?”
and the reply i got was, “im happy everyday. life is short, be happy everyday.”

Many of you know that i had a blog in the past which i keep for a long long time and haven’t been updating for quite some time. There were just too many things i don’t want to remember from the past, the things that i did or the people i was with whom i wasn’t really proud of altogether.

Its not fair for me to just shove the blame to everyone else, i know. Those choices were made by me alone and no one can force me to do the things that i never want to. The least i could do now is to put all that behind me and move forward, move on.

Hence, i spent close to 4 hours thinking and rethinking of whats important and tried to search for some sort of directions. Thoughts are more clearly expressed when penned, i knew i still have to write somehow. I love to write. This is it.

Thank you to everyone who cared so genuinely and who still love me even though i was almost always out of touch.
Thank you for not giving up on me.

In my bleakest moment, i would not have stood tall without you.